Temptations....

well today I did good foodwise until I went to my mom's and ate my ass off! Those damn little totinos pizza, why couldn't Alex eat all of his lunch. Why did it have to be sitting on the stove calling my name. Well I ate half of it and really don't know if it was worth the points. I have no idea the number of points but oh well it's over with!

Breakfast
chess cake
1/2 oatmeal bar

Lunch
Lean cuisine panini - 7 pts
chips - 1 pt

Dinner
fish, rotel and mushrooms - 5 pts

Snacks - geezzz
1/2 totinos pizza
poppycock (what was left)
chess cake
ring pop
gummy snacks

Tomorrow is Thursday- last day before weigh in...

Much better today

I think today was much better food wise. I'm not into blogging about the day today as Emma is crying, American Idol is on, and Greg is in bed. So I'm just going to blog my food choice.

Breakfast
oatmeal bar - 4 pts

Lunch
banana - 2 pts
meatloaf - 4 pts
pringles - 1 pt

Snack
mcdonald's caramel sundae 7 pts
packet of nuts - 1 pt

Dinner
fish - 4 pts
rotel & mushrooms - 1 pt
veggies - 2 pts

26 pts today, pretty much on target

4 bottles of water, 1/2 cherry coke zero

What A Day...

This has been one of those days. Emma and I had war from 11:15 - 1:15 and I finally won at 1:20. I think that started my day off wrong b/c I ended up getting to school late and it was my duty day. I also came to drink my two bottles of water and they weren't in my lunch bag (I did find them later on in the backseat). But I got on the scale and was at 228, which surprised me b/c I ate this weekend. Although I didn't pig out I didn't eat on program. I didn't even blog last night, but oh well. So I was kind of excited to weigh less than i did Friday even though it was by fractions of a pound. So I ate my oatmeal bar and then it was lunch time. I was starving and those damn chicken tacos in the cafeteria smelled so much better than my tv dinner was going to smell so I gave in and ate two. Yes, two huge tacos that Nicole fixed me. So I ate a banana and then the two tacos along with the two cookies. I should've just ate my tv dinner but oh well... THen tonight we went to Bennigan's and I ate queso with chips and then 4 little buffalo chicken sandwiches. I ate some of the fries. It was overall a not so good day. I sure hope Emma sleeps tonight. Back on track tomorrow!

Breakfast
Oatmeal bar - 4

Lunch
banana - 2
2 wheat tortillas
chicken meat
lettuce
cheese
salsa
taco sauce
2 cookies

1 piece of cookie cake

Dinner
Bennigans queso and chips
4 buffalo minis
fries
2 diet pepsis

4 bottles of water.

Weighty Issues...

I have been thinking a lot about my weight lately. Seems like this week I've been out of control a little--especially today. I don't know if it's because Greg is working, Emma is sick and not sleeping, or because it is raining. I don't even know where to start blogging at regarding food. It's not just the food today I've thought about it's the number that the scale shows and how it has effected my entire life.

I go back to 8th grade. I remember having to get a physical to play a sport, I'm guessing volleyball but not 100% positive. I remember I weighed 164 pounds and was so embarrassed I changed the 6 to a 4 so that the coach wouldn't know I weighed that much. Then on to the summer before 9th grade. The band director made us get on the scale, which was THE most embarrassing thing for others to see how fat I was. You see I knew I was fat but the number didn't both me until I had to share it with others. I remember I was 180 something and wanted to crawl under his desk. I was fat, plain and simple, obese. I remember when I started my new school in 7th grade and my mom bought hand me down uniform shorts for me so that she wouldn't have to buy me new ones. She bought shorts from someone who had graduated the previous year. Here I was in 7th grade wearing someone who was out of school's clothes. I remember too going to my nanny's house and her telling me "You're so pretty but you're just so chunky, if you'd lose some weight you'd be so pretty." I don't know what's caused all of this to be dug up but it bothers me. I pray Emma doesn't have weight issues like I had. I do have to commend my parents for never making me feel fat or not normal.

I proceed to April 1998, when i went visit Jen in MI for a week. I remember going shopping after classes at KMart to look for jeans. I had to buy a size 22, which was higher than my age. That bothered me. I weighed 254 pounds at that moment. When I returned from MI I lost weight and got down to 180 again, but I took pills and it all came back with the exception of the 20 I lost the right way.

Again, I have no idea when the weight came back on, but I them remember shopping for my wedding dress. The day I bought my dress I weighed 208 and that is my goal. That's about 20 pounds from where I was Friday and I think I can do it but I need to get myself started again. I'm going to journal today, even though I'm not 100% sure everything that I ate will be recalled, but I'll do my best. Hey, we all screw up but it's not a life or death situation. There is always tomorrow, which will be a better day!

Breakfast
bread
dijonnaise
2 pieces chopped ham

Snack at mom's
poppycock - she sure needs to get rid of that!

Lunch
pringles

bag of raisinettes

1/2 bag of mint M&M crisps

2 popsicles with Emma

4 pieces of pizza with mushrooms and olives

1 coke

2 bottles of water

The scale went down!!

Well I had already typed up this post and for some reason it was deleted. Pretty much it said I lost 1.5 lbs this week, bringing my weight to 228.5 according to the school scale. My mom's scale gave me several different readings. Good day but I cheated this evening at my mom's totally.

Breakfast
oatmeal bar - 4

Lunch

fettucine tv dinner - 6
salad - 0
ranch dressing - 1
bacon bits - 1

Dinner
Fatty's 1/2 of club sandwich
3 onion rings
french fries
1 spoon of pasta with seafood sauce

Snacks
poppycock
pringles

I guess I need to stay on track to get to my first big time goal of 225 lbs. I hope to reach that in 2 weeks. Give me the strength to stay OP.

Back on track!

I'm back on track today, even though everything this afternoon has been chaotic. Emma is getting sick and didn't get to bed until 9:45 p.m. I've been thrown up on tonight and am just ready for tomorrow to be here.

Breakfast - 4
oatmeal bar - 4 pts

Lunch - 9
fetuccine tv dinner - 6 pts
lettuce - 0 pts
bacon bits - 1 pt
ranch dressing - 1 pt
pringles - 1 pt

Dinner - 7
chicken - 5 pts
bread - 2 pts

snacks - 3
goldfish & cheetos - 3 pts
sweettarts - 1 pt

24 points for the day

5 bottles of water

I walked to Hen's today with the stroller.

Tomorrow is weigh in day, I'm curious to see if I lost anything. I cheated again and got on the scale. It didn't show any loss, so I'm not really expecting anything tomorrow. 2 pounds was the original goal, but if it's 1 I'll be happy. I just want a loss.

I am a CHEATER!!!!!!!

Plain and simple today was a cheatin kind of day! I started off fabulous with my oatmeal square and 2 bottles of water. Then we went take 1 year old and family pictures in BR. Emma had a lovely white cake with delicious buttercream icing to take a picture with and hmmmm..... I had to taste it to make sure it was good - LOL! I ate a few bites while she fed me and put it away. Pictures turned out fabulous as usual, so we headed out for lunch. It had to be quick so Greg and I ate backyard burger. I got a chicken sandwich and waffle fries--shouldn't be too bad, but when I got the chicken sandwich it had coleslaw on it, which had to have been a lot of points. On the ride home the cake started calling my name and so I ate some on the way to drop E off at Grandma and Grampa's. Dinner we decided to do in Metairie and ate at Chili's. I had a margarita, chips and salsa, and chicken tacos. I know I went totally overboard tonight, but it's been so long since Greg and I've had "us" time to eat it was well worth every point. So let me blog what I ate. Holding myself accountable for the feast!! Back on track tomorrow--oh and I got on the scale at my mom's 231.2, which is up from Monday's weigh-in but it's the end of the day with a lot of food in my belly. Hopefully by Friday they'll be some result on the scale - hoping for 2 pounds, but as long as it is a loss.

Breakfast (4)
oatmeal bar - 4 pts

Lunch (12.5 pts)
Blackened chicken sandwich - 6.5 pts
Waffle fries - 6 pts

Snack
Emma's birthday cake - unknown

Dinner
Chips and Salsa - 5 pts
Chicken tacos - 1 1/2 - 12.5 pts
Sauteed onions - 3 pts
Mashed potatoes - 3 pts
Strawberry margarita - unknown

3 bottles of water, 1 glass of water, and 1 diet coke

Candy Candy Candy...

The theme of my evening has been candy candy candy! I am craving candy for some reason tonight. I just ate a tootsie roll pop and I am going to going to bed soon b/c I am not feeling strong at all right now with this candy craving.

Overall I'm doing pretty good, my throat is hurting like hell but it hasn't stopped me from eating. Let me journal so I can get to bed.

Breakfast - 4 pts
oatmeal bar - 4 pts

Lunch - 8 pts
chicken fetuccine dinner - 6 pts.
pringles - 1 pt.
cucumbers - 0 pt
italian dressing - 1 pt.

Dinner - 8 pts
shake and bake chicken - 6 pts
pizza sauce - 1 pt
cheese - 1 pt


Snacks - 6 pts
puffs - 1 pt
peanut butter egg - 1 pt
strawberries - 0 pt
peppermint patty - 3 pts
Tootsie Roll pop - 1 pt

26 pts for the day - 4 bottles of water

Today has been good!

Today started off really good. I weighed in at my mom's house at 230.6, moved the scale and weighed as low as 228.2, but I am going to go with 230.6 as my weight for today. I actually felt like my pants were a little looser today, which could be my imagination but you never know. This evening Greg even told me that I look "skinny", which I take as a compliment. I feel different, I don't know if it's because I know I've been doing good or what. I feel strong and that I can accomplish my first goal - 30 by 30, which mean I need to way 214 by July, which is attainable.

I cooked tonight, avoided the augratin potatoes, ate a salad with the chicken, and went for a walk around the block. I drank 5 bottles of water and although I did snack a little, I didn't eat an entire cookie at my mom's. That in itself feels good!

Breakfast (4)
Oatmeal bar - 4

Lunch (6)
Meatloaf tv dinner - 4
100 calorie pudding - 2

Dinner (13)
Chicken - 6 oz - 6 pts
Lettuce - 0 pts.
bacon bits - 1 pt
ranch dressing - 1 pt
1 1/4 breadstick - 4 pts.
pizza sauce - 1 pt.

Snacks - 5 pts
whoppers - 3 mini
Sweetarts - 1
cheetos puffs - 2 pts
pringles - 1.5 pts


I ate all of my points tonight. Hopefully I'll do as good tomorrow. I'm proud of myself :)

Weekend is over...

Thank goodness the weekend is over and it's back to my normal schedule at school. Eating has been horrendous, but at least I'm blogging about it and am aware of my decisions and can look back and see why I didn't lose any weight this week. So here is the lowdown on my eating.

Breakfast - 5 pts
bread - 2 pts
peanut butter - 3 pts

Lunch - 6 pts
turkey - 2 pts
bread - 2 pts
lettuce - 0 pts
bacon bits - 1 pt
ranch dressing -1 pt

ate at April's
1/4 of a chicken wrap
1/3 of a 6" subway sandwich
a few chips and doritos
1 piece of cake

*That wasn't as bad as I thought I did!

cup of ice cream - which wasn't worth the points

Dinner
hamburger bun -3 pts
hamburger - ? - only ate 1/2 of it b/c it was nasty


Well that's it. I really thought I did worse than that. I guess this really wasn't as bad of a day as I thought it was. Back to the grind tomorrow. My mom bought a new scale and yesterday night it read 232.6, which I figured as much b/c I ate El Mex and didn't drink my water PLUS it was the end of the day. I'm going to start using her scale as my weigh in station on Monday and Friday. Let's see what tomorrow's weight in the a.m. will be. Here's to a good week on program!

Yesterday

I didn't get a chance yesterday to journal, so this is short and sweet...

Breakfast (7 pts)
bread - 2 pts.
banana - 2 pts.
peanut butter - 3 pts

Lunch (?)
El Mexicana
chips and salsa and cheese dip
2 burritos
rice
beans

Snack
3 chocolate chip and almond cookies
1 chocolate out of Pot of Gold

No dinner due to huge lunch.

2 diet cokes - 1 bottle of water

What a day!!!!

Today started off pretty good, I got to school found the scale and was down 5 lbs! YES!!! 5 days of dieting equaled to 5 pounds, pretty good for my first week. After that the remainder of the day went atumbling down... First Mini Olympics is cancelled, which threw my food plan for the day for a loop. I had already planned on eating a hamburger and had come to terms with it but now there would be no hamburger. So I ate my oatmeal and went on about my day, which could've been the absolute worst day, but it wasn't so bad. Lunch time rolls around and Mr. A ordered us sandwiches from Dimm's. I ate a turkey and a ham mini poboy, a bag of frito twists, AND an oatmeal raisin cookie. Later on I went back in the lounge and again ate another oatmeal raisin cookie and again a half of cookie. Thank goodness Trench ate the other half. Then they were selling little french breads that they couldn't sell b/c we cancelled MO for $1 so I bought them, dropped them off at my mom's, and of course had to eat two pieces with butter. Such stressful eating. I got home and went take a nap. I was starving, although I ate so much today. Nothing sounded good to eat, so I called my mom to cook my frozen all the way pizza. Went over there and ate half of the pizza, well I paid for that. Within 30 minutes I was in the bathroom. I now have no desire to eat for the rest of the night. I'm heading to bed!

Breakfast
Oatmeal bar - 4 pts.

Lunch
Turkey mini po boy
Ham mini po boy
Fritos twists - 4 pts
oatmeal raisin cookie

Snack
1 1/2 oatmeal raisin cookies
a slice of turkey
1/2 small po boy bread with butter

Dinner
1/2 frozen all the way pizza

3 1/2 bottles of water.

Hopefully I can do good this weekend!

Back on track...

Today was a fantastic day foodwise, schoolwise it was stressful... This has just been a week from hell or so it seems, although it has gone by super-de-dupety fast. Tomorrow is Mini-Olympics and they're predicting 70% rain... Please hold out until after the events. I'm a little worried about food tomorrow b/c normally I bring my lunch and unfortunately I won't have a chance to eat my normal tv dinner lunch. My plan is to eat a burger and although it's not low in points, it'll probably be better than pastalaya, which I have no desire to eat or the school pizza which smells fantastic but isn't all that great. Tomorrow Greg and I are supposed to go to Sam's, which means that we'll probably go to Bed Bath and Beyond which means we'll eat out somewhere. I'll try my best to do good, but I think tomorrow will be started off when I go weigh in at school IF I can find the scale. Now how in the hell does a scale disappear from the ladies restroom I have no freaking clue. Tomorrow my early morning goal is to locate the scale and get on it. Now hopefully I have lost something b/c I have been faithful for the most part this week. I've drank 4 bottles of water each day and ate more fruits and veggies than I had previously. Let's keep our fingers crossed. I think the best part of this week has been my blogging to keep track of what I am eating. I feel I am able to get some stuff out that normally I wouldn't. So now it's time to list what I ate for the day today...

Breakfast (4)
Oatmeal bar - 4 pts.

Lunch (6)
Salad - 0 pts.
Lt. Ranch dressing- 1 tbsp - 1 pt.
Bacon Bits - 1 pt.
Meatloaf tv dinner - 4 pts.

Snack (5.5)
Peanut butter - 2.5 pts.
bread - 1 pt.
goldfish - 2 pts.

Dinner (9 pts)
turkey - 3 pts.
bread - 2 pts.
chips - 4 pts.

Total so far 24.5 - 3.5 left for the day, I may use those since it's early.

4 bottles of water!

Not so good today

Well today started off really good, had my oatmeal bar, a healthy lunch, lots of cantaloupe and then I got the call... The dreaded call "We're going to El Mexicano, do you want to come" and of course I said wellllll yep. Well tomorrow starts a new day and hopefully blogging about my eating will encourage me to do better and refocus on what I'm trying to achieve - a healthy body. So tonight, although I don't know the points value for what I ate for dinner I'm still going to hold myself accountable by listing it! Let me refocus and start again tomorrow as tomorrow is another day!

Breakfast
Oatmeal bar - 4 pts
turkey - 1 pt

Lunch
bread - 2 pts
turkey - 1 pt
cheetos - 4 pts
fruit cup - 3 pts
cantaloupe - 2 pts

Snack
1 dove football candy
1 sweetart bunny

Dinner
chips and salsa and cheese dip
burrito
enchilada
chalupa
taco

Remember - tomorrow is a new day

Drank 4 bottles of water and 1 diet coke with dinner

Day 2

Overall a good day, I'm still going strong, not too many temptations to pass up today. I did pass up a bread from one of the kids today, which is a big step for me AND I didn't buy any candy for the field trip tomorrow (even though a bag of raisinettes would be a great snack).

Food Journal
Breakfast
Oatmeal Bar - 4 pts.

Lunch
Chicken fetuccine tv dinner - 6 pts.
Cherry fruit cup - 3 pts.

Snack
Turkey breast - 2 pts

Dinner
chicken breast - 4 oz - 4 pts
hamburger bun - 3 pts
pork and beans - 1/2 cup - 2 pts
lettuce - 0 pts
ranch dressing - 1 tbsp - 1 pt
bacon bits - 1tbsp - 1 pt

2 pts left for the day

I drank 4 bottles of water and 1 diet barq's

Oh and I even passed up going to Sicily's with my mom and Sherrie - big yeah for me!

No exercise, but maybe that'll be my focus next week. I did tell Greg I am going to try and only get on the scale on Monday and Friday's at school. I hope to lose at least 10 lbs by the end of the school year, which is about 6 - 7 weeks away, a totally attainable goal.

After watching Biggest Loser I always feel motivated, what will I do without that on Tuesday nights? I don't think I could do that though. I couldn't be away from Emma and Greg for up to 15 weeks. No way possible.

Well day 2 has come and gone and has been successful!! Until tomorrow....

Weight Loss Beginning Today...

Well today is the day I am starting over. I am thinking Sherrie will be engaged in the next few months and probably getting married within a year. I cannot be this fat and be the maid of honor. I got on the scale today at school and I weigh 235 pounds - wow, I actually typed that number out. Maybe this is what I need some type of diary to vent/track/journal etc. to get myself back in gear. Today I am going to journal what I ate. Overall it's been a good day. I passed up freshly baked chocolate chip M&M cookies at my mom and didn't eat the 4 pt. bag of cheetos puffs. I grilled chicken on the George Foreman, which hadn't been used in ages, ate some fruit/veggies and feel pretty strong.

Breakfast
Oatmeal Square - 4 pts.

Lunch
Meatloaf TV dinner - 4 pts.
Fruit cocktail - 2 pts.

Snack
Emma's goldfish - 1 pt.
Small banana - 1 pt.

Dinner
cucumber with vinegar - 0 pts.
pork and beans - 4 pts.
grilled chicken - 4 ozs - 4 pt.
hamburger bun - 3 pts.

Total for the day
23 pts. - 5 left

I also drank 4 bottles of water and 1 can of diet Barq's

I didn't workout any but hopefully getting my eating in check will start me off good. I'm trying to not get on the scale until Friday and hopefully will see some type of result. It's so hard when you're in the habit of getting on the scale daily. Well we'll just have to see how I do. God, grant me the strength to make it through this week and be successful.