Disappointment

I had total disappointment today when I got on the scale. I was expecting to see a loss on the scale and saw a BIG jump. The scale said 236.5. I got on it several times, moved it and still nothing 236.5. Now I haven't been over 235 in so long and it just pissed me tremendously. My FIL is now weighing 220, that is 15 pounds less than me. How freaking sad is that. My BIL also weighs 220. I am a fat ass. My DH is married to a FAT ASS, who is fatter than his daddy and all of his brothers. Plain and simple. So to kick my discouraged ass to the curb, I got on my bike this morning after the scale incident and rode for 20 minutes non stop and felt awesome afterwards. I was very self conscious of what I ate and avoided my mom's house. So let's see how today went foodwise

Breakfast
1/2 banana
cereal and milk

Lunch
turkey sandwich w/dijonnaise, cheese, and a tomato
rest of the tomato and another one with low fat ranch

Snack
goldfish
chocolate pudding w/cool whip

Dinner
meatloaf dinner
frozen veggies

I am having problems remembering if I ate anything else. I did drink a bunch of water and I sure as hell hope I can get some of this weight off. I wanted to be 225 by my birthday but that is seeming less and less likely. TOmorrow is our 3 year anniversary and we're planning on going eat out and of course I want to eat and not be OP, but I'm going to do my WATP sometime and then I won't feel so guilty for eating. It's a pain in the ass right now for me!!!

Until tomorrow,
JTP

Exercising

Today I exercised more than I have in a while. I rode my bike with Emma on it for about 25 minutes and then when we got home she sat in the wagon, so I pulled her around the block. I was sweating my butt off and felt really good when I got home. It was a sense of accomplishment I hadn't felt in a long time. Exercising is bringing me some great joy in my life. I never thought I'd say that. It's as if riding my bike just brings a new high to my life. I know I have to lose weight and although I may not have made the best food choices, I am getting in some exercise instead of sitting on my ass all day.

Breakfast
oatmeal bar
1/2 banana

Lunch
portion of Emma's grilled cheese
half of her fries
hot dog with chili, mustard, and cheese
rice a roni

Snacks
york pepper mint patty
cherrios mix
trail mix (which I am going to throw away)

Dinner
chicken quesadillas w/sour cream and salsa
fries from Wow

I drank 4 bottles of water today and exercised - whoo hoo!

Until tommorrow,
JTP

Back to blogging

I didn't blog the past two days due to going out of town and being tired. Tonight I figure I did pretty good so I may as well blog. Greg got me a baby seat so now I can ride Emma so that'll be another form of exercise for me. Today we rode twice, once in the a.m., once in the p.m. I feel much better after doing that. Another thing I did really good day was drink my water and not eat out. WOW.... Last night I ate Sicily's, the day before we ate Cafe Dumonde and Mr. Ed's. Everyday it's some kind of fast food. Today I think I did good. I was very conscious of what I ate and although I didn't count points, I did get in fruits and not eat all that bad. I'll try to remember what I ate.

Breakfast
2 peaches
1/2 banana
oatmeal bar

Lunch
turkey sandwich w/cheese and tomatoes w/dijonnaise
tomato salad w/lowfat ranch dressing
small bag of cheddar and sourcream chips

Dinner
2 hot dogs w/mustard, turkey chili, and cheese
rice a roni

Snacks
ice cream bar
100 cal pack of M&Ms
apple w/peanut butter
peaches

Don't think that I did that bad.

Until tomorrow,
JTP

Another day of exercise

Well I just finished the two mile WATP and feel really good about things. Today I was mindful of what I ate, although it wasn't OP, I was mindful. I read something in Redbook about these people who had dieted together and lost 70 pounds and one of the things the woman said was that she made sure she ate a fruit or veggie with each meal, so today that was my main goal and to drink more water. So here's how my day went

Breakfast
oatmeal raisin oatmeal bar
3/4 banana

Lunch
went to Nobile's with Tara and Theresa
friend chicken tender, green beans, dirty rice, and a piece of french bread.

Snack
ate three scoops of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream
some cheetos
an apple and peanut butter
some goldfish with Emma

Dinner
box of frozen veggies and pieces of hamburger left from Sunday

Snack
2 freezie pops

So today was better than yesterday. I did drink 3 bottles of water, which is better than the past few weeks. Tomorrow we're going to NO for a night out and I know I'm going to eat a lot, but I'm going to try and do WATP in the morning if my child lets. I've never tried to exercise with her right here, but for some reason I'm seeing her get in my way, so I've been doing it at night.

Until tomorrow or the next day,
JTP

Beach pictures and motivation

These are three pictures taken at the beach two weeks ago. I am using these as motivation for me to lose weight. My other motivation is that I tried on a size 22W bridesmaids top and a 20 skirt and I don't want to have to order either size for Sherrie's wedding.

Starting over again...

Well I haven't blogged in quite a while and maybe tonight just started it all again. I haven't eaten right today but I did finish it the right way. I actually exercised and I haven't done that in so long besides walking to and from Sheryl's house strolling Emma. I only did the one mile of WATP but hey it's something. Eating wise I didn't do great. I didn't eat breakfast and that kind of set the tone, but thinking back I'll try and journal everything I ate. I know what my big problem is these days - WATER. I went from drinking at least 4 bottles a day to barely drinking one and drinking more diet cokes, cokes, etc. My weight this morning was 233.5, my mom's scale said 234.8

Breakfast
fudge bar

Mom's house
hmmm... 3 pieces of chess cake; one piece with cool whip

loaded mashed potatoes from Chili's

Lunch

route 44 diet dr. pepper
cheddar peppers

Snack
a vanilla pudding

Dinner
red beans and rice
shake and bake pork chop
cucumber salad w/lite ranch dressing

snack
a vanilla pudding

Okay so that wasn't that bad :)

Until tomorrow...
JTP